Thursday, September 29, 2016

Finding the Right Person

I recently (within the last two years, recently) saw the quote, "Don't worry about finding the right person... Focus on BEING the right person."
I had never thought of it that way.

Looking back on the "On This Day" posts on Facebook is often very painful (embarrassing) for a lot of people. People my age might start to cringe when they see posts from about 2007-2010. I've heard people say so, and I know I do!

Today Facebook showed me some posts I made almost a decade ago
about finding a godly guy. For so long, it was all about FINDING the right person. I was ignorant to the fact that the Lord wanted me to Himself for a while - to grow in Him, lean on Him, depend on Him, to be refined as an individual.

I can honestly say that as soon as I got serious about getting close to the Lord and becoming Spirit-filled (there's a difference between being a 'Christian' and being Spirit-filled), it was crazy how all of a sudden I didn't care a thing about FINDING the right person. I was too focused on BEING the right person and preparing my heart for when that person would come along.

I'm no relationship expert, by any means. Many of you are familiar with my 'failed' attempts at relationships. ;) But once I started seeing them as not failures, but lessons/growing experiences/exercises in refinement that God had allowed, then I stopped worrying. I stopped feeling left out or heartbroken and started looking for ways to connect with other Spirit-filled people, strengthening those relationships, and serving God because this alone time was a GIFT from God. It meant I had more time to become what I needed to be - what HE wanted and created me to be. I started seeing this 'singleness' as a gift and not a punishment. It changed everything.
I wouldn't have grown as much in the Lord had things worked out the way I wanted them to.

I still have so much growing to do, Lord knows I do. But I know for a fact I'm where I am thanks to the gift of the season of 'singleness' - a gift that I saw as a punishment before I realized what God was doing in my life.

So, in a nutshell, Facebook's "On This Day" can sometimes be painful or embarrassing to look at, but it can also spark some good reflection on life and growth since 2007 :)

"I will refine them as silver is refined and test them as gold is tested."
Zechariah 13:9

Wednesday, September 28, 2016


"When God is silent, He is not still. God does some of His best work in the dark. Trust Him -- He's there."
-Tony Evans

This quote is from today's page in the Bible study book our church youth group is going through this year. Yesterday I posted about spiritual seasons and in many of the "valleys" in my life I have been waiting on something - waiting on God to answer a prayer, to send this or that. It's funny, I heard the Garth Brooks song "Unanswered Prayers" the other night and had totally forgotten that song existed, but it struck me because truly, when it seems as if God isn't hearing us or answering right away, it just means we are in a season of waiting and He needs us to patiently trust Him, that His plans are coming forth in His time, and there's nothing we can do to rush that. Many times, we are praying for one thing, and He doesn't give it to us because He has something BETTER in the works for us!

It's super easy to get caught up in all the milestones of your 20s and think that God has forgotten about you if you don't have this or that. But the truth is, He is working in ways that you never imagined!

  "But if we hope for what we do not see, we with patience will wait for it."
Romans 8:25

Tuesday, September 27, 2016

I Fell in Love...

...with the words to a song I recently discovered (although all my friends already knew it apparently :))

The song is all about seasons - in life, in your personal spiritual walk... Honestly, I never knew or felt different seasons spiritually until my last couple years of college. I was always a Christian, but apparently never close enough to God to truly experience seasons and refinement by fire. I could go on about this forever, but I won't right now.
The point of this post is that the song I've copied here has been bringing me to tears for the past few weeks. It says over and over that in EVERY season, God is still God, and we should worship Him when things are good and when they are bad. 

My life the past few years has been a roller coaster of seasons, and now I feel like I'm in a harvest season, and you really have to watch out in the harvest seasons because when things are going great, 
a) You can forget to be dependent on God because you feel confident and are in danger of becoming too self-reliant. You can become ungrateful.
b) The devil is on the prowl and knows when you are in a harvest season and will do anything in his power to try to rob you of your joy. 

Just things that have been on my mind lately. Food for thought. And sharing beautiful lyrics that we should live by :)

Happy Tuesday!

Desert Song
This is my prayer in the desert
When all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides
And this is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me, Lord, through the flame
And this is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on its way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand
And I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here
All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be emptied again
The seed I've received I will sow