Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Highlights From the Past Month

I've gone for far too long without blogging, so I have to condense my past month into this short but sweet picture story of what I've been up to. The writer in me would love to go into detail about all of these pictures/events, but I think I'll just let the pictures talk for themselves haha. So here they are, in no particular order!

Honeygirl got a new collar!

First ECU game of the season!

Ashley took lots of selfies with my camera


I started graduate school at Appalachian State University

Carowinds with Ashley

PGA golf tournament

Spent lots of time with Honeygirl
 Made lots of canvases to sell/give as gifts

 Set up a booth at the Bush Hill Festival in Archdale to get our name out there
 First Appalachian game as a student

Stacey's baby shower

 Visited HPU during Greek Week to cheer on my AChiO sisters

Gym Class Heroes concert at HPU

Gave Jolina a late birthday gift and we painted nails during the Panthers game on Sunday

 Took silly mirror pics with Ashley

Had a tasty lunch/"business meeting" at Panera...AND GOT A PUMPKIN COOKIE!
from now on, i'm REALLY gonna blog more often!

Monday, September 17, 2012

MoTD (WARNING: this one's a tear jerker)

"When all our tears have reached the sea
Part of you will live in me..."
[[ So I have this problem where I fall asleep on the couch most nights til like 3 (if I'm lucky - 6 am if I'm not so lucky), and then I have to get up and get ready for bed, and often times I'll stay up for a couple hours and get things done that I can't usually get done during the day (ie. blog). ]]
So that's what happened tonight, and right now I'm thinking about one year ago today (and listening to sad Tim McGraw songs - probably not the best idea hah).
One year ago today, I got to hang out with my grandma and have a conversation with her for the last time ever.
If only I had known that day would be the last time...
I would've stayed longer.
I would've said "I love you" more.
We would've reminisced more.
I would've told her how much I'd enjoyed having her as a best friend.
I would've told her she was my hero.
I would've read her Bible to her.
I would've said goodbye.
But I didn't know. I didn't know, and that's something that will always, always bother me.
As I was waiting to go in her room at Hospice, I heard her talking to the doctor and telling him what wonderful grandchildren she had. She told him how we came to see her so often and how much she loved us. She didn't know I was out there listening. And pinching my hand so I wouldn't start crying. I had to be strong.
When I went in, she looked great. I thought "she'll be here for a while." She had had a great lunch, was in a great mood, had on yellow pajamas and looked so beautiful. It was a rainy Saturday afternoon and I had just left a theatre work call. It was a really sweet time.
People had brought Grandma fresh flowers, and there were some pictures on the wall, but she wanted pictures of her mom to be in the room. So I went to her house to get some of her favorite pictures and put them where she could see them and feel comforted.
We talked and talked. I gave her some lotion and some Dr. Pepper lip gloss (it was all I had!).
I don't remember everything we talked about, but I do remember her saying that she was ready to go home. At first I thought she wanted to go back to her house, but looking back, I'm pretty sure she meant Heaven. She also kept saying she wasn't scared of death anymore. It was really, really hard to hear that. I just kept thinking about all the fun times we had had together for the past 23 years, and my eyes would fill with tears, but I would turn my head so she wouldn't see. I wanted to be strong for her.
Looking back, I wish I had just let the tears flow, and just hugged her and maybe we'd cry together.
Why didn't I?
Something I tell myself all the time is, "You don't have to try to be so strong all the time. It's okay to show emotion. It's okay to break down once in a while."
I wish I had broken down that day. I wish I had stayed for more than two hours. There was nothing more important, or that would even compare to getting to spend a few more hours with my grandma. Nothing.
I just wish I had known that right then, in that moment.
That night, the nurses said Grandma was calling out to Jesus, and they got her "under control" by doing whatever they do to put people out (I'm not downing Hospice, but you have to understand where I'm coming from, please).
From Sunday to Thursday, Grandma was alive, but couldn't wake up or talk to us or respond to anything. I was grateful I had gone and spent one last Saturday with her, but I'll always feel like I could've done more. I can't help it.
I'll be eternally grateful for that day, though. It's burned in my memory forever. Unfortunately, the rest of that week is too, and with it being a year since all that happened, I'm curious to see how I'll handle this week...
Sorry for the sad post; sometimes you just gotta get it out!

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

First App Game as a Student

f o o t b a l l    s e a s o n !
Last Saturday, I got to go to my first Appalachian football game as an Appalachian student.
We were really worried it would rain, because that's what the weather reports had been saying. So I was kind of bummed (okay, really bummed), but still determined to go, but at the same time kind of dreading sitting in the rain.
But we (me, Ashley, and Zach) left High Point anyway, even though the sky looked daunting, and headed to Hickory to fetch Alex and then head to Boone.
I was worried because we were late, and we didn't know what the weather would be like, and even more worried when we saw masses of people leaving the stadium when we finally got there at half time, but when we rode by the stadium and I saw the all of the people still sitting in their seats - a sea of black and gold - all of my worries faded. The feeling I got was just indescribable. My worry quickly changed to complete awe as I saw the bright lights and heard the roar of the crowd as the "Marching Mountaineers" came out, and the announcer's voice boomed all over the mountainside.
And once we found seats and got situated, I just felt like I was where I belonged. It was amazing. The music, the colors, the crowd, the company - it was all so awesome.
There wasn't a drop of rain in the sky, and it was nice and cool, but not cold. Just enough for a jacket, but I was comfortable in my shorts. I loved every minute of it.
And then we realized that somehow this was the first college football game that Ashley had been to... So it was pretty special!
And best of all, Appalachian won against Montana!
What a great night.


Friday, September 7, 2012

Just a Fun Day (& more!)

Well, I would've written this blog sooner, but for some reason I couldn't get blogger to work.
Anyway, on Tuesday, I had one of the most relaxing days I've had in a while.
What did I do?
All day. 
First I went to Carter Brother's for lunch with Jennifer.  We don't get to hang out that often, so it was really good to get to catch up with her.  After lunch, we went to Friendly Shopping Center.  All that needs to be said about that is that we share a love for shopping and finding good deals, and some GREAT deals were found on that trip :) It was also a nice bonding time for us, haha.
After that, I met up with Brooke at Hobby Lobby, and we drooled over the overwhelming abundance of Christmas decorations.  Hobby Lobby is so wonderful and overwhelming and great.  And of course, Brooke and I also share that love of shopping and finding good deals.

My favorite thing I picked up that day, though, was at Hobby Lobby.  As a graduation gift, Zach had my diploma framed, and Brooke and I picked it up.

(Of course I picked out the frame. Can't you tell?)
It was a rainy, cloudy sort of day - the best kind of day for shopping, in my opinion. There's just something about shopping for hours on a cloudy day with a great friend...
And as a disclaimer, it's NOT all about the material aspect of shopping. It's just something I like to do! Especially with good company.
And after my long day of shopping, Zach asked if I wanted to go to J&S with him and his parents.
DUH I wanted to go. J&S is my favorite!!
That was a great day.
[[Also this week I got to spend quality time with two of my other friends, Leanna and Alex.  I joined Leanna in the HPU radio room as she did her campus radio show on Wednesday from 12-2 (one of my old time slots!!!!! so many memories! haha). It was so good to see and catch up with her!
And last night I had an adventure at Buffalo Wild Wings with Alex and stayed with her and her adorable dog Bailey in her apartment in Hickory. Lots of bonding this week!]]
TOMORROW I'm selling some of my artwork and PORT SOUTHERN stuff at a festival in Archdale. I'll let you know how it goes!