Thursday, June 26, 2014

Red, White, & Blue

These are some of the patriotic-esque outfits I wore last year on the days leading up to the 4th of July and on the 4th of July. I just love wearing red, white, and blue clothing and accessories! When stores start putting out their America - themed stuff, I get so excited.
Today I started wearing red, white, and blue, and probably will until the 4th because I have so much more patriotic - looking clothing this year. It's gonna be so hard to decide what to wear on the 4th!
What do you like to wear that's patriotic?

Saturday, June 21, 2014

National Wear Your Lilly Day

It's National Wear Your Lilly Day, and I'm not sure what I'm going to wear. I never buy Lilly full price (sorry, not sorry!), but these are the Lilly dresses I'm currently obsessed with:

 Eaton Shift Dress

Harbour Tunic Dress

Going on my wish list!

What are you wearing today?!

Happy Lilly Day!



Summer is finally here! 

I love summer for all the things it means:
-no school
-frozen treats
-pool time
-baseball games 
-bright colors
-the beach
-wavy hair
...I could go on.

I'm so excited for all the summer adventures I have planned and excited to have time off from working. I promised myself I'd keep this blog more updated as I go on these adventures!


This morning, Emery and I have been celebrating summer. Yesterday she got a new toy from Petsmart. They had a whole section of toys that looked like sea creatures and I died. At $3.99, clearly a great investment. She's obsessed with this thing:

Looking at her, you'd have no idea she lost a toenail yesterday and had to go to the emergency vet haha!!

H a p p y ,  happy  S U M M E R!!


Tuesday, June 10, 2014

This is How a Heart Breaks

Do you remember your first real heartbreak - the first one you couldn't bounce back from?

Mine was when I was 16. Around this exact time in 2005.

Never in my life had I felt so hopeless and depressed and confused. I remember Grandma taking me to J&S and I couldn't stop crying at the TABLE. And the more I looked around and saw all the happy people around me, the more I felt like I would never be happy again. And then I felt bad because this was supposed to be a fun bonding day for me and Grandma and I needed to get it together but I just couldn't and that made me cry even more, for her sake. And for the sheer fact that I had let someone get into my life and control my emotions like this.

My mom took me to Abercrombie & Fitch for some retail therapy but literally EVERYTHING everywhere made me think of him. I cried that whole summer. What was wrong with me??? Why couldn't I just get over it? Countless days at Knollcrest pool with Alex, hashing it over. What could I have done differently? How did it go from what it was at first to how it ended? Nights were spent in Alex's room listening to songs that reminded me of him. Or at Applebee's with our moms, still talking about it. Poor Alex. Poor Mrs. Downey. Poor Mama. But they stood by me the whole time.

Wanting to send those text messages, constantly checking my phone, watching The Notebook and crying, listening to songs that made me sad, thinking about all the great times and wonderful memories, going over everything over and over in my mind... that's what I did all summer. I wondered so many times when I would be myself again and how someone I hadn't known that long could come and go and it affect me like this. I had had a couple heartbreaks before but nothing nearly this intense. Nothing had affected me this way before. Nothing had been this abrupt or shattering.

This was just the beginning. It was preparing me for the future and making me a stronger person, and I don't regret it. In times like that, when you're as low as you feel like you can go, even though it doesn't feel like it, it's a beautiful thing. The pains you feel are pains that are growing you and it's almost like a birthing process, where the old is giving way to the new and it hurts a whole lot. God is working and you have to go on faith and trust that He's working it all out according to His plan. Hold onto the great memories, but be expectant of new ones to come.

And thankfully, through it all, God has provided for me the best possible people in my life. I know that I have friends that I can call crying and they'll stay on the phone with me til I feel better. I have friends who will text me all day with advice and comfort from miles and miles away. I have friends who will go to Barnes and Noble with me and look at magazines and make me laugh and then go eat cookie skillets or Carolina's Diner with me. I have friends who offer to fast and pray with me to get answers when I need them so desperately. And of course I have a family that will fight for me. I am blessed beyond belief and forever grateful.

And that's my thought for Two-Cent Tuesday.


Monday, June 2, 2014

Where Have All the Good Men Gone? - Part 1 - #TFM

They haven't gone anywhere.
There are still good men out there, just not as many.
They are being overrun by guys like the ones that write for the website "Total Frat Move." This site has angered me dozens of times over the past few years, just seeing articles that friends share from the site. For undergrad, I went to a university where there was a very strong emphasis on Greek life, and almost everyone was in a fraternity or a sorority. I was in a sorority myself and am still very actively involved. I have no problem with that. What I have a problem with is the TFM crap.
Fraternities were originated to raise gentlemen who contributed GOOD things to society. Let's face the facts, that's not always the case anymore.
Where's this anger coming from?? An article one of my friends just shared from Total Frat Move about why women shouldn't wear high-waisted jean shorts. I'm not gonna go to the trouble to post the article here, but you're more than welcome to look it up. Just hope your computer doesn't get a Total Sexist Move virus from opening the site.
Anyways, this guy decided he needed to let women know that high-waisted shorts aren't attractive on them and AS WOMEN WE NEED TO WEAR WHAT MAKES US ATTRACTIVE TO MEN, right?!?!?!?!?!? He's such a pig in the article, talking about women as if they're sex objects and all that matters about their clothing is that it makes him want them. THANKS MAN BUT I DON'T WANT A GUY LIKE YOU AT ALLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!
I guess what he's trying to say is that if you want a misogynist who only cares about sex and doesn't respect you at all, then GIRL DON'T WEAR THEM HIGH WAISTED JEANS!
I mean, duh! Where have I been, geeze??!
 I shouldn't be so mean; obviously he's got the wrong idea and thinks he's right because he's never been enlightened with the truth. So I feel sorry for him, really.
The truth is, dressing modestly will attract the RIGHT kind of guys. If you want a nut like this guy, then by all means, follow his advice. But if you want a guy that will respect you, then remember that "modest is hottest." Wear what makes you comfortable because when you're comfortable, your wonderful personality will shine through and that's what a guy should be attracted to first -- your heart and your soul and your personality. Of course physical attraction has to be there, but it'll be a cold day you-know-where when I start making myself look a certain way to attract a guy.
I've been accused of not knowing what I want. Okay. But I DO know what I DON'T want, and that's a cocky, self-righteous, entitled, sexist, disrespectful Total Frat Move guy.

It's really important to know what you don't want. I posted a status a few weeks ago about not settling for guys like this, and maybe once they see you won't settle, they will shape up. At least we hope -- it'd be really sad and lonely to live your whole life as a TFM guy.

***This wasn't meant SOLELY for ranting and putting TFM on blast, but also in hopes that someone that needs to see this sees it and it makes some kind of a difference.